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| Man I haven't been on this site in forever. I didn't feel like sleeping so I was like hey xanga. So here I am. I need to shower.
Maybe I'll start writing in this again...what ever happened to xanga?
By the way everything has changed and i'm so lost lol
"baby you are the weapon I choose" - Katy Perry Self Inflicted
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| I have to post something so my xanga wouldn't get deleted so boo.
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| Xanga has definitely changed like a WHOLE lot. I've not been on here since the summer (which by the way seems so far away now). I'm trying to do these AP Chem mastery problems, which I've been staring at for the last couple of hours. Then an idea popped into my head...XANGA! I haven't been on that in like forever. So I go on and read some subscriptions...all the way back to like the beginning of November, and there's only like what? 4 people? who uses xanga regularly still left in my subscriptions. A thought popped into my head, maybe I should start using it to. Will I? Of course not.
I'm looking at all these new functions and I don't know how to use them nor do I really care. I'm just going to type my heart out for this entry then abandon xanga for another couple of months, maybe check back again, and ignore it again, and well one of these days maybe I'll just stop. I'll probably forget the password too. Oh well.
I had a big fight with my mom tonight, like one of those fights where we're not in speaking terms, which is rare because me and my mom are like THIS, which is so stereotypical if you think about it. So that's been bugging me, like she has trust issues with me and my friends. Seems like she never really forgave me for being a little hell-raiser few years back. But you know, I've changed so much since then. It's weird how people change, like you never see it coming, and you'd look at people and be like, nah that'll never happen to me, but stuff happens and I deal with it no matter if it's good or bad. Like this week, my emotions have been craptastic, but oh well I'll survive.
I'm listening to Miley Cyrus (Hannah Montana). Isn't that sad? But her song is so catchy.
Okay let me go work on my mastery problems for a bit... AE is helping me :D
Okay, I just gave up.
I want to give up on this xanga entry as well (I know I'm a quitter, deal with it). But then I want to finish this like I finish my sleepless rants. My little brother is brushing his teeth and now I'm listening to Cascada but I'm not going to change my currently listening to because I'm lazy. I have one last thing to do for my AP Chem but screw that, I'll think of something to write down there. I mean it will get done, probably while I'm watching Will and Grace, but it will get done. I'm not a quitter when it comes to homework, which I wish I was sometimes. I want to be that rebel who for one day doesn't do any work or anything. I got close last year during my period of my sophomore slump (let's just call it that) but I ended up finishing it all during my study period or like right before 2nd period started or even during class. That's what I always did, and plus I most of the time remembered my chemistry homework, which is a must, I mean I was doing good in Chem, like my best class, so of course I was going to do all the work. This year, I just can't afford it? I guess. I don't know. I don't know why I'm trying to hard for anyways. I could've just not taken any AP classes and worked hard in blow-off classes. Yeah, that's the life. But that's not me. I'm just too responsible and I'm no fun.
It's people like me who have issues.
Ah, Will and Grace is on, let's see which episode it is...Looks like I've never seen this episode before..oh well.
I will write more...some day. I'm so tired and I still have to study for US.
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| Hello to whoever still reads xanga. Are you out there? I know I haven't updated in the longest time, but tonight's different. Tonight I feel like it's the end of the world. Actually, I feel that every night. It does mark the beginning of summer, but yet, I still haven't grasped the concept yet, this year. Every other year, I have always been ecstatic during this time of year, but tonight, it's different. So, it's 1:28, and I'm drifting away into dreamland once again, but I will type. I will update this entry tonight. I don't care if I have Victoria yelling at me again, I'm going to not sleep until I finish updating this. I have so much to do over this summer, yet I don't know what to do? Am I the only one who has ever felt this way? I don't understand myself, how can others? I look back at myself, thinking maybe I could've done something better. You suck at sports, you have no love life, you always know how to hurt people's feelings, your grades have slipped tremendously, and you're still obsessing over the one person who thinks you're a joke. I need mental help. It's not that I don't value what my friends tell me, I just want to talk to an adult, and I can't seem to find the correct adult. Maybe it's just because I'm sleep-deprived that I'm saying this. I'll be back tomorrow, laughing at my stupidity once again. I can do whatever I want, it's summer. Bummer summer. Nothing to worry about except yourself. I should formulate some goals out, not like I ever accomplish them, but they're good to have just in case. I have a job over the summer, I should get ready for that as well. Maybe I should get ready to go back to school again for the hell of the junior year that I will put myself through. I want to do so much, but there's so little time, and sitting here on the computer for so many hours a day, doesn't help. I have to do better. I need to do better. I need to improve myself somehow. I have fears. If I don't want to become what I fear, I need to act now, but am I? Of course not, because I'm a lazy loser, all I do is sit around, waiting for stuff to come to me? Well you know what? Not everything is going to come to you. Someday you will be rejected. And your dreams? You're never going to see them ever. I will never see my dreams. Someday always gets in the way. The one thing I've always wanted to do. Maybe if I really want it, I should try harder. Snap out of it. This isn't me. I've done plenty of horrible things in my life, but I never thought I would've given up on myself. Oh my god, I've given up on myself. How could this happen? There's no use complaining, just go back to your lazy life, and embrace it, because that's who you're going to be for the rest of your life. I need to do something about it. I don't know what to do.
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Oh and Happy New Year
_EDIT FROM FACEBOOK: (it is now 5AM)
I saw this on Christine C's note so I was like cool, since I have insomnia, and can't go to sleep!
My 2006 Peeps :)
[There
so much I want to say about every person, but it's just that I can't
think about it at the time, also sorry if I forget to include you]
Kelly Chen
My
longest misunderstood underestimated friend. I know the insults have
increased this year, but I was you to know, I mean well most of the
time. I don't truly mean my insults, and I find it last year we've
falling farther apart, I mean yeah, we arguemore take the bus less
together, and I insult you a lot, but it's all good, We still cool. :)
We will always be cool, seems like forever in my life I will be stuck
with you lol and I don't mind whatsoever
Gladys Wu (Woosh)
My
friend that I truly became friends with during the Halloween of 8th
grade. It's weird how we got to know each other for one year, then we
split apart in freshmen year, but we're still so close in so many ways.
Don't eat so much this year, I know you love them sugar. lol. You are
my quiet friend, you and Nina, but more you lol. I mean you do make
quite a i don't know how to say it, when you do speak lol.
Nina Kuang
Oh
the emo friend, lol, who's in denial about being emo. We go through a
lot together, don't we, we're like lovebirds lol. We went through so
much, and we're about to go through so much more, but it doesn't matter
because it's you that makes me a better person, friend, and appreciate
things more, Sure you're the smart one and I'm the dumb one, but hey I
don't know how I'll live my life without you, you have my blessing
though if you do decide, i will always be a phone call away
Emily (Yee) Wai
How
do I start describing emily.. hmm.. evil, plain old evil lol. But I can
see Emily does have this soft side, hard to say. lol, yes I am mean.
It's weird how we used to like each other, then hated each other, and
now, i don't know what we are now lol, you name it. keep hurting Kelly
:)
Melody Mui
Oh melody, melody, melody, the one friend who
used to know the most about me. I miss you THIIS MUCH, seriously we
need to start seeing each other more. I like don't know anything about
you anymore, I'm still always here, and I know you'll be getting in
more and more trouble as the years go by and I'll always be here
lending a shoulder to cry on without any complaints
Elyne Tran
This
girl is like I don't know. This girl is the girl who knows like
everything about me. I come to her to tell her about everything, I mean
not everything, like secrets and stuff I'll never tell but stuff about
me. My first Asian friend at WY, and my division buddy. We have come a
long way in our friendship I remember this one time where you hated me,
I forgot why but yeah, WE'RE LIKE THIS YO lol
Victoria Zamora
This
girl is always there for me, and she's always fondling in lust. lol. i
love you Victoria, remember our times this year, in Biology we were
always in the same group, the whole year, it's crazy, and look at us
now. ENGAGED, hahahaha.
Liz Nolan
The girl I only started
talking to this year, it's crazy how fast this year went by, it seems
like we should've talked to you earlier, I mean you always sat at my
side during division, lol. THis girl is the blond friend me kelly and I
never had. lol. THIS IS A GOOD THING, LIZ. I need white people :)
Grace Batiste (Simone)
I
love the way you insult Kelly, but who can blame it, Kelly is one
special girl, lol, it's weird how everyone's connected to kelly. Grace
is this intelligent evil girl that I never knew until this year, ah
DIVISION BUDDIES
Iza Zlotkiewicz
HI Iza!. I only started
talking to you starting.. HOMECOMING, i think, you liked playing with
my hair? well everyone does lol, She is one sexy polish girl lol and
you can't not like her, ebcause she's done to earth SWEET girl :)
Jessica Suminski
You
and Iza are like inseparable division buddies, i love it. I love your
outgoing nature and your personality is really fun, and stay on that
Viagra and what about mr. handsome lol. oh yeah and i need to give you
a cupcake, i'll try to save you from earlanson whenever i could
Brittney Jones
My
first friend at WY, you and Kahlin are so cute together, even now after
you two broken up. I love reaidng your xanga, so poetic, TEXTING
BUDDIES :)
Kahlin Kariem
MY LOCKER PARTNER, thank you for
your keys, you are possiby the best locker partner ever! but we won't
need keys anymore, yeah it's sad lol. another TEXTING BUDDY!
Graham B.
I've
only started talking to graham sort of this year, and I can't recall
his last name and he doesn't have a facebook so SORRY. Yep my LUNCH and
DIVISION ad REHAK buddy lol.
Carmen Au
My other division asian, what's up. You know you are one cool chick and one cool listener :)
Damaris Nieves
Yo,
trig buddy, we will fail trig together, oh well. I loved eating lunch
with you last school year, and I loved sitting with you in trig, too
bad we're moved now :(, but oh well.
Victoria Santiago
This
girl, my DEVOUT CHRISTIAN FRIEND. I've never met anyone as devolt to
God as you, and I love thta fact oh you. I know I take these bad
pictures of you, but i love them, and i love eating lunch together, and
it's fun. :D, you rock.
Gabby (Gabriela) R.
I don't want to mess up your last name (rosa?) I have a lot of fun with you and other Gabby and you're great, rock on :)
Gabby B.
I
met you this year, and I don't want to screw up your last name either,
but you're lots of fun, a cool person, but too bad we don't really see
each other
Ashley Echevarria
How can I start? I can start by
saying thta you're a great wonderful girl. The girl who stays up with
me on Yahoo, the girl who is misunderstood, and needs to see the love,
the girl who wants that someone, the girl that I love, this awesome
friend that I can share my life with like through talking lol. keep
being yourself, and one day you'll find that someone :) don't worry
Agnes
I
forgot your last name too ><, omigosh I'm so sorry because I love
you so much! I love talking to you, walking you from Rehak's class,
having PE with you again all those stuff. You need a facebook lol, I'm
glad you love the present i got for you :) hehe agasms.
Rene Lima
Biology Buddy!!! I love how you care for animals, it's deep, dude, and i love it. I don't see you much anymore, sucks :(
Mrs. Gallardo
thanks for coming to WY and teaching us so much stuff. I learned so much and I really want to take your AP Biology class :D
Mr. Heller
I have to mention him because he is like the best history teacher ever!
Johnathan Avita
Hmm, the guy from homecoming haha that sounds dirty, but seriously, i love you and your personality and everything.
Miranda Ho
We only met this year, and I don't know much about this girl, but I know she's a cool person :)
Morgan Richardson
I don't really know Morgan, but she's a lot of fun lol Morgasm :)
Cassie Mikrut
Possible
the only friend who can read me inside and out. I miss spending time
with you so much, I miss our phone talks and I cherish every moment
that we get to spend time together. Thanks for always being there, I
know we have our little moments lol, I hope we get to see each other
more this year.
Ashley Eng
The girl who cares so much and
wants nothing in return. I had a great time at your party, and you're
so cool with your karate kicks and stuff, you keep rocking on too!
Angela Weng
This
special girl, who always worries about me, I really appreciate it,
angela, but don't worry I'm always okay, I'm a strong person, sure I
can be a big fuss about stuff, but yeah I'm trying to improve :D, when
i really need you i'll come to you, don't sweat about it, thanks for
everything :)
Michelle Li
Michelle you are one crazy girl, who can be so sweet :), I lvoed having biology this year with you, you made my day :)
Eden Liu and Kathy Mui
These girls are such overachievers. You two amaze me :)
Zoe (The Sterg) S.
I
forgot your last name, Sigmann? anyways, thanks for being there. I feel
like I can tell you everything. You're always there keeping my spirits
up, I really appreciate that. I love your humor and everything :)
Ada Lin
ADA!
what's up. you are one crazy asian :) kind of like michelle but
different you know. thanks for bringing my spirits up this year :)
Lori Mai
Hey
Lori, I'm sorry I accidentally called you a bitch. I'm the bitch,
really I mean I couldn't think about your quote, and what it meant, I'm
really sorry. Lori you are a smart sweet girl :)
Jessica Luo
TRANSFER
STUDENT :) I don't really know you, but sorry about your cracked screen
and I'm glad to help with your phone needs lol. oh wait, i remember we
go way back.. UPBEAT haha piano, when I first met you.. hehe JASMINE!
Jasmine Law
what's up, other UPBEAT buddy lol. I remember i called you jessica lol. now we're TEXTING BUDDIES lol. and working buddies.
Michelle Lau
BUS
BUDDIES lol we both hate the train and the 8 bus but what can we do, I
love taking the bus with you, thanks for waking me up when I fall
asleep :)
David Lee and Michael Chan
You both get one little
descriptions because you two are like always together lol Bridget
called you two twins. so what's up DOODES lol, my two asian GUY friends
lol. Oh and david, smile more :), you're so emo now.. actually Michael
should smile more too, he's like emotionless most of the time lol.
don't worry I'll get that Wii!
Bridget Makol
Thanks for
listening through my AIM rants, I know I can be a little emotional
sometimes.. all the time lol. We only met like a month ago? and already
we're like so close O__O. you're a cool person bridget
Henry Guan
I feel like i can also tell you everything. You ar elike the most open-minded asian guy I know. I love that. :)
Sabrina Brticevich
I
don't really know mch about this girl, but I know that she gives David
her iPOD lol. You're a cool person Sabrina, like seriously lol. I loved
playing your Taboo game
Kristal Buzin
My cool model friend. You look like a model, I'm serious. also my TECHNO BUDDY :D
Feon Chow
like the msot innocent asian ever :) This girl is so ncie and sometimes can be crazy :)
Belle Huang
I loved the Korean snacks you bought for that get together :D
Candy Wu
I don't really know you, but you're really sweet girl, like candy lol :)
Alison Moy and Diana Mei
These two are always together lol. I loved your party, it was PIMPED out lol
Eva Li
I don't really talk to you anymore, becasue we don't really see each other, sometime on the bus but that's it lol.
Amanda Mok and Amy Lee
I haven't seen these girls in like forever. I miss them.
Angela Chen
I also see you on the bus sometimes, getting on at the orange line :)
Jenny Yu
DOn't see you much either. :(
Julia Luo
love talking to you online lol
Seungwoo Kim
You're a great guy Sueng :)
Katherine Choy
The short cute girl who is full of surprises :D
Julia H.
I lvoed haivng Bio with you. Smart in languages girl lol
Christ V
I miss having class with you! Those extra credit trips were fun :D
Jennifer Cheung and Debra Chin
these girls and i will fail AP Euro together, yay!
Shriya Gandhi
Shriya is like this cool person who knows everyone, she is also a very nice girl and everything, yep :)
Jenny Chui
Smart girl, dont' see her much anymore.
Ashley Chung
My
old YTF and world studies buddy, and now brit lit and PE buddy, this
girl is really smart and has a lot going on, good luck ashley :)
Drew
I don't remember your last name, but thanks for sharing a PE locker with me, I really needed a lock
Aalok
I don't remember your last name either >< but thanks for helping me with my lock that one time
Sami Kishawi
that one time after school you said i was cool lol, so thanks :)
Shola Rufai
my chem and trig buddy!
Becky Janus
I remember how we met, we introduced each other in class, yep lol. Now we're going to fail trig together lol. yep yep :)
Kevin Sampson
This tall guy who is my PE and trig buddy. he's really smart in trig O__O
Rebecca Sconza
I love your hair! lol
Samantha Bakall (Wen wen)
haha you make mandarin less boring when it's boring at time :)
Eda Xian
my geometry buddy (sweet girl), now mandarin buddy (smart girl)
Brandon Ng
I
don't really talk to you, but I used yo go to school and YTF with you
and I know you transfered in and you're in my class so yeah :P
Louisa Ng
you re Brandon's sister. i met you during homecoming i surprisingly knew your name lol
Chester Moy
My old lunch and healy buddy! We dont' see each other much anymore :(
Sharon and Sharlin Lau
the twins from healy! you guys dance awesomely lol. i still can't tell you guys apart lol
Jeremy K.
crap i forgot your last name, kilobasa? but you are one cool polish queer :)
Maribel Gamon
I
haven't seen you in forever and I recently found you on facebook/yahoo
yay! ugly betty pride :) I can't wait til you get your TMOBILE CELL
PHONE yay talk forever
Ashley Bowe
yay freshmen Ashley, i
love how outgoing you are, rock on :), sorry i couldn't make it to your
party, you and jake, hope it lasts :D
Katie Griffin and Alyssa A.
My first? new freshmen friends? lol drafting buddies you two are so different.. how did we start talking? lol
Daniela Castillo
another drafting buddy! i remember how we met, you came up to me and asked me my name lol
Andrew Wesley
Another drafting buddy! my only senior buddy this year.. I THINK lol thanks for helping me with all gym drawings :)
Adriana Carmona
I love it when you come into drafting during your ROTC class lol.
Nina Henderson
I don't really know Nina but i hope you and Gabby last long together :)
Carla Lutz
haha the girl who plays her PSP during Foy's class. the girl who is so broed at that class i lvoe her expressions :)
Chris Perez
haha, hi Chris, nothing needs to be explained here ;) but you are one smart dude.
Amber Beasley
my brit lit buddy! what's up? i love talking to you in brit lit!
Dave Pitts and Lola Lamme
Piano
buddies! I miss your anime Dave, and I miss your awesome dancing Lola,
it was cool having upperclassmen near me in piano :D
Julissa Santoy, Denise, Lisette Hernandez
I forgot Denise's last name :( but yeah WORK BUDDIES lol. Senior year must be fun :D
August Washington and Gabby Thomas
more WORKING BUDDIES and lunch buddies :)
Lauren K.
We had lit last year and this year together. You come up to me for Euro study guides and I give them to you, love to help lol.
Katie Lawlor
haha my LP buddy, we stopped talking? :(
Kavya P.
hey Kavya! we don't really talk but i met you this year :)
Ola McLees
I met you during French, not realizing you're also in my PE class lol.
Iman Naim
I also met you during French! lol. I know you as Liz's friend
Nathan Shuftan
I met you through Jennifer last school year. We don't really talk, but we have 2 classes together.
Caleb Spahr
Working and Biology and Piano buddies. I will never forget how you messed with Ms. Wiggins last year
Karen Wong
The girl who is supposedly related to me? lol. I don't see you much
Winnie Ho
I met you last school year then I found you on facebook lol
Edison (Eddie) Lopez
Hey eddie, you are one cool doode. You made me love sign language :)
Erika Dickinson
Nina's friend, who moved away, we hung out once last year lol :)
Colin Rouser, Mikey O'Riley, Lindsay Howard, Yolanda Abousba, Stephen Rangel
Geometry buddies! I loved having geometry with you 5 :)
Christopher Thompson
I know we don't talk anymore, I mean how could we? last year we had 3 classes together and this year none, i miss that.
Michael Sansone
Hey Lab partner. Thanks for doing all those lab and letting me copy them, you are really fast and great :D
Andy Schwartz
You are like a cool person, keep driving lol :)
Bianca D
I did you a favor going to your locker during chem lol i will always remember that :P
Carolyn Marie
I miss having lunch with you!
Iris Maxine
I don't see you anymore! it's sad :(
Lindsey McIntosh
the girl i see everyday with zoe lol.
David Hu and Jason Moy
Healy Lunch buddies!
Benita Leung and Sally Feng
really sweet Healy freshmen girls :D
Natalie Jeung and Her lab partner and Brian Moy
omg i can't think of your name right now I'm SOO sorry CHEM buddies :D
Vaishak Babu
I love eating lunch with this guy and to have biology with him SWEEEET
Alex Sanchez, Mathew Brendemuehl and Jorge Zamora
LUNCH BUDDIES AS WELL!
Stephanie Mui
we don't usually talk anymore but recently i fund out you stole my song haha :P
Mike Marquez, Helen Lai, and Pun P
my Payton buddies! I haven't seen any of you for a LONG time. and i miss texting helen *sniff*
Eddie L Villarreal
hehe my internet friend :) met you at the pride parade this year :D
Anna Chui
I haven't seen you in forever either. High school's been good hopefully. freshman :D
Michelle Passi
I found you again this year. It was so cool. I miss being in the same school as you, and seeing you :)
Angela Huang
My latest facebook friend addition. I would see you randomly lol. I knew you would get a facebook lol
Kevin Huang
Ok
i kept you last because I wanted you to feel special. Look, from the
bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for what I did, but nothing can
change what I did, but it's just awkward not being able to talk to you
because I see you every day during chemistry and all these parties that
we both go to. I just want this tension between us to be over. I know,
I'm not you, and you can continue being mad at me, but I really am
sorry, and it's just so weird seeing each other everywhere. So yeah,
sorry.
This thing took me 2 hours. So you guys better like it
lol jk. I value others opinions. :) I should go to bed now. Happy New
Year! Dang, it's 5AM. the only one still online is like Angela lol.
THis must be the longest thing I've ever typed for many things, like
facebook and longer than anything I've ever types on xanga O__O. I wanted to do this for a long time, just never found the time for it, and tonight I just felt like it lol.
_copied on my facebook notes.
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